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spitfiretears
summer is a state of mind
 
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a pretty war
I am black and white
red and gold
merciless, loving
compassionate, cold.
Peaceful destruction
chaotic success
whispers of longing
God, what a mess.
Trying to love you
dying to care
running and screaming
with eyes unaware.
Catch me I'm falling
on purpose this time
I wish this stupid poem
had no rhythm or rhyme.
Writing about nothing
and everything, clearly
I'm in need of some rest...
my insides are weary, teary, bleary.
God, what a mess.


 
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Me Gusta
No scorch markss - turn up the heat
 
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two months
since I last blogged. I guess I don't really care that much. I like my thoughts, but I don't feel compelled to share them. They mean more to me when they stay in my head or when they're shared at the right time.
 
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Haha this seems to be a trend lately....

100 things

1) fifth grade teacher's name: umm...my mom.
2) Last words you said: "yeah, I hope you have a good day too."


3) Last song you sang: Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap
4) Last person you hugged: matt..or chris. Don't remember.

5) Last time you cried: last week


6) Last time you said I don't remember: a few seconds ago
7) Last thing you ate: yogurt. It was kinda ucky but edible.


8) What color is the floor in your room: navy blue carpet

9) What color socks are you wearing: kinda whitish
10) What's under you bed right now: this is a complicated question, because my bed is actually like nine feet in the air, and my desk and dresser are under it...it's called learning how to make the most of college dorm room space


11) What time did you wake up today: 7...my first class of the semester was at 8. gross.

12) Current taste: vanilla peppermint gum and green tea. Sounds yucky but it's not too bad.


13) Current hair color: dark auburn
14) Current favorite band: umm...wilco, Imogen Heap, Belle and sebastian, random dance music, the doors, the stones, etc etc etc aka the usual
15) Current annoyance: there is nothing to eat in this entire freaking dorm except stale animal crackers.

16) Current thing you want to eat: anything but those animal crackers!!

17) Current desktop background:"National Sarcasm Society: Like we need YOUR support."

18) Current worry: hahaha umm I feel sheepish...squaredancing class.

19) Current hate: nothing really.

20) Current favorite article of clothing: my new running shoes
21) Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex:I love when guys have strong hands. Mmmmhmm.

22) Last CD that you listened to: Imogen Heap
23) Favorite place to be: outside in the summer, either alone or with my buds.


24) Least favorite place: anywhere I can't escape from easily

25) Time you wake up in the morning?: Depends on when I have class that day.
26) Time you get home from school?: varies. Thank God college is not like highschool.
27) Favorite color: teal, black, and deep purple (I like the band too.) :-)

28) Do you believe in an afterlife: yep.


29) Do you believe in God?: indeed.

30) Current favorite word/saying: "What fresh hell?!?"
31) Favorite book: Looking for Alaska

32) Favorite season: SUMMER. SUMMER SUMMER SUMMER.

33) What is on your bed at the moment?: just my pillow.

35) Where do you want to go for college?: umm...the college I'm already at?

36) What do you want to be when you grow up?: HAHAHAHAHAHA.....I have no idea. I finally declared a major though.
37) How many kids do you want: 2 or 3. Not only one. and not more than 3.

 

HAVE YOU EVER...

38) Been really really drunk?: surprisingly not, actually

39) Said "I love you" and meant it?: of course.

40) Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird.etc?: I fight with my cat when she gets bitchy
41) Been to New York: yes
42) Been to Florida: yes

43) Been to California: no

44) Been to Hawaii: someday

45) Been to Mexico: this march!

46) Been to China: nope
47) Been to France: yeah and this stupid girl hit me with her car

48) Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day:  i think so

49) Have you ever made out with anyone who didn't speak ANY english: no

54) Worst feeling in the world: getting busted for something you were so sure you wouldn't get caught for

55) What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning: I don't know it's kinda garbled
56) How many rings before you answer the phone: I hate talking on the phone
59) Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Yeah I have this teal koala bear named "Him." Don't even ask.
68) What are you most scared of?: someone dying


69) How do you want to die?: never?

70) Who is the last person that you called?: Mom

71) Where do you want to get married: outside somewhere


72) If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?: less worried about everything

73) Who do you hate?: no one that I know of. It takes too much energy.
74) Been in a swimming pool?: umm, duh
75) Are you timely or always late: I'm usually on time unless I'm hitching a ride with one of my parents.


76) Do you have pets?: Hate my mom's stupid dogs. And don't really like the cats either. I love my kitty but that's it.

77) Do you like being around people?: mostly

78) Best feeling in the world?: relaxing.

79) Are you for world peace: yeah, but I don't think it's possible. Too many different people.
80) Are you a health freak: not really.


81) Do you have a "Type" of person you always go for?: it always varies
84) Ever afraid you'll never get married: not particularly
85) Do you want to get married: eventually maybe

86) Do you want kids? see above

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU..

87) Cried: no
88) Bought Something: mozzarella sticks from the union...what a ripoff


89) Gotten Sick: no
90) Sang: probably in my head


91) Said I Love You: a couple of times
92) Wanted To Talk to someone: not really
93) Met Someone New: I just started a new semester, so I met like 20 new people within an hour

95) Talked To Someone: of course

96) Had A Serious Talk: not even

97) Missed Someone: ouch.

98) Hugged Someone: yes

99)Yelled at someone: not a good idea to yell at the people you see 24-7.


100) Did you have a dream about some one last night: I had freaking weird dreams, but I don't remember them now

 
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Oh wow how cool is my friend matt

part of a recent AIM convo b/t my friend matt and me:


fireflower004: please God no snow
Lucerin Blue 87: i <3 snow
fireflower004: OMG matt
fireflower004: i can't believe you just did a side heart
Lucerin Blue 87: i always do <3
fireflower004: AAAH
fireflower004: HAHAH I HATE THOSE
Lucerin Blue 87: LOL
Lucerin Blue 87: sorry
Lucerin Blue 87: i do them as jokes
fireflower004: riiiiiiiiight

That's all. You would have to know me to know why this is funny. Or maybe I'm just tired, sick, and stressed. Who knows?

Just for spite....



(((side heart)))





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